Anonymous

This is an email sent to Shoshana from Rebecca Minkus-Lieberman, a close friend from Princeton.

Dearest Shoshana-

Since I heard about Amir right before this past Shabbat, I have not stopped thinking of you, your mother, and Uri. I so wish that I had known earlier, that I had been able to be there for the shiva, been able to offer whatever comfort that is possible at a time like this.

Although I did not know Amir very well, I do have certain memories of him from the time that I spent with your family. He always reminded me so much of you. He always seemed to speak so quickly, as if his mouth was trying to catch up with the thoughts and ideas running through his mind. And I recall his smile and the way that he lovingly called you Shoshi. I remember the time that I came home with you for Rosh Hashanah. I remember Amir speaking with your father in the kitchen – about exactly what I don’t recall – but I do remember his manner and tone: he was discussing something with intensity, arguing his point with passion, pressing your father to look at a different perspective – one he was convinced was correct – and doing so with fierce conviction and love. I guess that’s what I recall most about him – his fiery passion about things he believed in and his intellectual commitment to questioning assumptions and ideas. In that way, he reminded me so much of you. I know how close the two of you were and how much you shared together, the trips, the bike rides, the valued conversations, the intense love and the thoughts of your souls. I mourn with you, Shoshana, and I cannot adequately express our condolences to you and your family on this tragedy. I am thinking about you every day and wishing that I could be there just to hug you.

Hamakom yenachem otach be’toch sha’ar avlei tzion ve’yerushalayim.

Much love-
Becca

I haven’t spoken with Amir in a long time. It will be our tenth year reunion from high school this year. The last time I saw him was sophmore year in college. But he still makes me smile every time I think of him. Amir, I have never met anyone like you. There is only one Amir. I thank you for being you. You drew people in, wanting to hear more, feeling safe, feeling daring. I can even hear your voice and the funny way you chose to annunciate the words as they flew out of your mouth or carefully exhibited themselves. Do you remember you played the Shylock from Shakespeare- I don’t remember what for- but you were very convinicing. For me you will always be Amir- and that means so much.

I hope Hashem is taking good care of you.

Claire

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

“The one thing that was hardest for me was to watch him struggle to function on his own. For him self reliance was essential and it was hard to see him lose that”

This is more or less the main core of what Amir said at the funeral of his father this past summer. As I write these lines and think back over the last twenty years I think to myself that this is really the esprit de corps of family Lopatin. You are all independent thinkers and doers. Yet, at the same time meurav im habriot; proud yet warm, loving and encouraging, never aloof. Amir certainly didn’t fall short in that.

My memories of Amir are mainly of his childhood. He was always very quiet, but I could tell from the look on his face that he was absorbing like a sponge. At a very young age he already gave an impression of being a baal sechel (one whose actions are dictated by intellect rather than emotion). His maturity level was adultlike. Even when he played a game he seemed to be analyzing it scientifically, his head tilted to the side and a thoughtful expression on his face. As a twelve-year-old, seven-year-old Amir seemed to me like a cute little professor, round glasses and all. It seems funny to me that he grew up to be an athlete as well. An ocean of tears would not sufficiently express how we feel. If the true gauge of quality of life is the impact one has on the world around oneself, than I think that Amir lived a life that many an old man can be jealous of.

This weeks parsha(portion of the bible read in synagogue on shabbat) parshat Shmini speaks of the untimely death of Nadav and Avihu, the two saintly elder sons of Aaron Hacohen. About them God says, “bekrovai ekadesh,” I will become holy from [the death of] those who are closest to me. This means that sometimes God takes the “good ones” in a shockingly tragic way in order to stir the rest of us. Bemoto tziva lanu lehitbonen bachaim. In his death he commanded us to contemplate the meaning of life. By doing so we transform his death from a “freak accident” into a kiddush Hashem, a sanctification of God’s name. The Chafetz Chaim, Rav Yisroel Meir Hacohen of Radin (1828-1933), is the most revered figure of Israel in the past hundred years. Even during his lifetime he was referred to by all Jews throughout the world as the “Saba Kaddisha,” holy grandfather. He was a spiritual giant, a man of sublime purity. His pure absolute faith in God and the truth and eternity of His Torah permeated his entire existence. Virtually every Jewish home in the world, no matter how moderately religious and no matter how small its library, contains one or more of his classic works of Jewish law or ethics. The first edition of his Artscroll biography (page 328) contains a dramatic account of the death of his beloved son Avraham at the age of twenty three. Here is an excerpt:

“Calmly and steadily he went straightway into his house and sat down to observe shiva, the seven days of mourning. Not a teardrop appeared on his face, not a groan could be heard from his mouth. ‘The world,’ he said, ‘has lost a Torah scholar of stature.’ When he was eighteen, he was already expounding Torah innovatively like one of the great luminaries! Then he added, ‘Hashem gave, and Hashem has taken away; blessed be the name of Hashem (Job 1:21) from now to eternity. Now I know that I am a Jew.’ Then he told the story related in Toldot Adam (chapter 16). At the time of the Inquisition in Spain in 1492, the vicious bloodthirsty men of the church slaughtered the two beloved precious children of a pious, devout Jewish mother before her eyes. The courageous woman lifted her eyes to heaven, and with an unflinching heart she whispered in prayer: ‘O Master of the world, it is true I always bore you love. Yet as long as I had my two dear, priceless children, my heart was divided in two. There was still a place there reserved and contained for my children. Now that they are no more, my whole heart is a dwelling-place for my blazing love for you…Now I can truly obey the commandment to love Hashem your God with all your heart and with all your soul’ (D’varim 6:5)….And the Chafetz Chaim passionately exclaimed, ‘O master of the world, the love I bore my son till now, I henceforth give over to you!'”

May the memory of Amir live with us forever.

I wanted to share my feelings about the nice evening in which I met Amir. Shoshanna introduced us because we were individuals who shared the pasion for life, for discovering new places and meeting fun and interesting people. I have the best memories of a beautiful family, with a huge heart, who made part of my experience in the states an unbelievable one. Shosh and Amir you are part of all that…no matter how far we all are from each other we are all together in soul.

Love from Chile,

Carol Weinstein

I just wish he could have read all this…
I just wish he could have known how much he was loved and appreciated…
I just wish it wasn’t too late, since I’m not sure that he knew.
Even for the shortest glimpse.
I just wish…